THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN PART II. DAY 3: THE ONLY WAY OUT OF PAIN IS THROUGH IT

At least that's the only way I have ever known.There is no magical spell or prayer strong enough; or miracle or surprise.When it hurts, it hurts.And no matter how hard you try not to feel the pain; no matter how much you knock yourself down with over-sleeping, over-eating, over-thinking... the torment won't let you breathe.Each [...]

TONIGHT

Be quiet It's ok Embrace yourself tight Allow your tears flow And your fears come Allow to feel nothing And to break, To lose control Don't be scared to be fragile, my love You are one with your sorrow, yea that's right Stay quiet It's ok Silence brings healing Stay and wait, Stop and breathe [...]

TWIN SOULS

If it hurts deep inside, It doesn't mean it's wrong If it hurts you and you don't understand, If it brings up all your pain, Your fears, your wounds That's not wrong, That's not bad It's a gift It's the moment when you meet again When you remember your soul in another When you can [...]

THE WORLD BEYOND THE BLUE TREES. CHAPTER 7: THE NEW SYSTEM

2000 years ago the first regulations on the preservation of the Blue were written in the Ordinem Internum Codex. The codex described the doctrine of The New System. -Excuse me Magister Asmund, may I ask you a question? – Nanna raised her hand, shaking it quickly to get the instructor’s attention. – Yes, Nanna – [...]

I DONT WANNA HEAR YOUR FADING VOICE

Can’t you see I’m empty again? 내가 또 비었다는 걸 모르겠니? This cannibal void strikes my soul 이 식인의 공허함은 내 영혼을 때린다. It’s a nocturnal poison, a hungry ghoul 이것은 야행성 독약이며, 배 고픈 괴물이다. No, don’t tell me that you know 너가 알았다고 말하지 마라 Don’t tell me that you get it 네가 [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN PART II. DAY 2: BEFORE THE CHAOS

I can’t really remember much. What was of me before the chaos? When exactly did the chaos start? I can’t remember. Maybe it’s because I don’t want to remember. Maybe it’s because my brain cannot distinguish between what really happened, what I felt that happened and what my nervous system kept inside its cells as [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN PART II. DAY 1: I WANT TO RUN AND HIDE

I’m not sure from who or where to run. I’m not sure where to hide. But that’s what I feel, and intense feeling of inadequacy. It is not worthlessness or lack of self-value. It’s unsuitability for the purpose of coexisting in this world. Or maybe for the “simple” fact of existing. I’m not sure. But [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 15: I’M AFRAID I WON’T SLEEP TONIGHT

That’s nothing new. Sleep has become just a yearning for me for the past ten years. It may actually be even longer than that, I lost count of the so many sleepless nights. My problem is that the World is designed in opposition to how my brain works. I just don’t fit in. My brain [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 14: CREPEHANGER

No, I’m not talking about anything related to pancakes. I’m also not talking about the actions of demons or specters. I’m talking about this tendency to mostly feel unlit events in relation to people around me, including myself. What I’m trying to say is that this “Beautiful World” is, to my eyes, a different kind [...]