THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN PART II. DAY 5: THE THINGS I COULDN’T DO FOR YOU

I may have dreamt it. I read somewhere that the brain cannot actually distinguish between real and fake memories, that in fact it treats them all as it is commanded to respond. So, if you really believe something happened when in reality it didn't, the brain will fully convince all of your consciousness that it [...]

I DONT WANNA HEAR YOUR FADING VOICE

Can’t you see I’m empty again? 내가 또 비었다는 걸 모르겠니? This cannibal void strikes my soul 이 식인의 공허함은 내 영혼을 때린다. It’s a nocturnal poison, a hungry ghoul 이것은 야행성 독약이며, 배 고픈 괴물이다. No, don’t tell me that you know 너가 알았다고 말하지 마라 Don’t tell me that you get it 네가 [...]

ACERCA DE POR QUE DISCOVERY CHANNEL DEBERÍA DEJAR DE EMITIR LA SEMANA DEL TIBURÓN

Nunca tuve ningún problema con Discovery Channel. Es más, mis fieles seguidores saben que es uno de mis canales favoritos. Por no decir que es uno de los únicos canales que miro. También sabrán que no miro tele. O sea, miro tele pero no miro lo que todas las personas miran en la tele. No, [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN PART II. DAY 2: BEFORE THE CHAOS

I can’t really remember much. What was of me before the chaos? When exactly did the chaos start? I can’t remember. Maybe it’s because I don’t want to remember. Maybe it’s because my brain cannot distinguish between what really happened, what I felt that happened and what my nervous system kept inside its cells as [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN PART II. DAY 1: I WANT TO RUN AND HIDE

I’m not sure from who or where to run. I’m not sure where to hide. But that’s what I feel, and intense feeling of inadequacy. It is not worthlessness or lack of self-value. It’s unsuitability for the purpose of coexisting in this world. Or maybe for the “simple” fact of existing. I’m not sure. But [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 15: I’M AFRAID I WON’T SLEEP TONIGHT

That’s nothing new. Sleep has become just a yearning for me for the past ten years. It may actually be even longer than that, I lost count of the so many sleepless nights. My problem is that the World is designed in opposition to how my brain works. I just don’t fit in. My brain [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 14: CREPEHANGER

No, I’m not talking about anything related to pancakes. I’m also not talking about the actions of demons or specters. I’m talking about this tendency to mostly feel unlit events in relation to people around me, including myself. What I’m trying to say is that this “Beautiful World” is, to my eyes, a different kind [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 13: A QUICK RECIPE TO BREAK YOUR OWN HEART

It’s simple, just go after the cliché advise of following it. That’s it. You follow your heart, you’ll get a 90% chance of having it broken. The truth is, you never know. Honestly. You never know anything in advance, therefore the outcome of having your heart trashed into millions of pieces is not fully predictable. [...]