I saw the thunderstorm was getting closer. I may be stupid, but I'm not blind. I saw it. I felt it in the air. But I did not run. I did not go to any closer shelter. I just stayed standing there, right in the middle of it. Without a raincoat or an umbrella. Bare … Continue reading THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. PART II. Maybe I find another way.
Hearts are a complicated matter.Physiologically speaking, of course.But I'm talking about the non-tangible aspect of it.As it is said, the heart is the place where feelings reside. Or should reside. Or better said, should awake.Feelings are learnt behaviours, they stay in the mind until they are triggered by an external event.The way I see it, … Continue reading THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. PART II. The unhealed heart of a monster.
It's like trying to mix water and oil. You can put them together in a bowl or a glass; they can both stay floating but they will never become one. A solid and a liquid will not fuse; except under modified external circumstances: by force, extreme heat, extreme cold... To make myself clear, the only … Continue reading THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. PART II. A love between a solid and a liquid will never happen
I may have dreamt it. It's said that the brain cannot actually distinguish between real and fake memories, it treats all as it is commanded. So, if you really believe something happened when in reality it didn't, the brain will fully convince all of your consciousness that it did happen. That all those details are … Continue reading THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 20: THE THINGS I COULDN’T DO FOR YOU
Many people love me. Probably more than I think. Many people appreciate me; see me as some sort of good-hearted selfless human. People I met in the past; people I have not seen in a long time, people I used to have differences with, people who with I created great memories. But somehow... Somehow I'm … Continue reading THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 19: OFF BALANCE.
At least that's the only way I have ever known.There is no magical spell or prayer strong enough; or miracle or surprise.When it hurts, it hurts.And no matter how hard you try not to feel the pain; no matter how much you knock yourself down with over-sleeping, over-eating, over-thinking... the torment won't let you breathe.Each … Continue reading THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 18: THE ONLY WAY OUT OF PAIN IS THROUGH IT
En este preciso momento, casi a medianoche, me rindo. Es rara esta sensación, porque no estoy llorando. No siento nada. No me sale nada desde el pecho. Solamente, vacío. Así quede despues de un largo dia intentando conquistar mi ansiedad, luchando duramente con mi mente para evitar que mis pensamientos me asesinen. Vacía. Deje de … Continue reading ME RINDO