THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. PART II. The unhealed heart of a monster.

Hearts are a complicated matter.Physiologically speaking, of course.But I'm talking about the non-tangible aspect of it.As it is said, the heart is the place where feelings reside. Or should reside. Or better said, should awake.Feelings are learnt behaviours, they stay in the mind until they are triggered by an external event.The way I see it, … Continue reading THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. PART II. The unhealed heart of a monster.

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. PART II. A love between a solid and a liquid will never happen

It's like trying to mix water and oil. You can put them together in a bowl or a glass; they can both stay floating but they will never become one. A solid and a liquid will not fuse; except under modified external circumstances: by force, extreme heat, extreme cold... To make myself clear, the only … Continue reading THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. PART II. A love between a solid and a liquid will never happen

TONIGHT

Be quiet It's ok Embrace yourself tight Allow your tears flow And your fears come Allow to feel nothing And to break, To lose control Don't be scared to be fragile, my love You are one with your sorrow, yea that's right Stay quiet It's ok Silence brings healing Stay and wait, Stop and breathe … Continue reading TONIGHT

TWIN SOULS

If it hurts deep inside, It doesn't mean it's wrong If it hurts you and you don't understand, If it brings up all your pain, Your fears, your wounds That's not wrong, That's not bad It's a gift It's the moment when you meet again When you remember your soul in another When you can … Continue reading TWIN SOULS

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 17: BEFORE THE CHAOS

I can’t really remember much. What was of me before the chaos? When exactly did the chaos start? I can’t remember. Maybe it’s because I don’t want to remember. Maybe it’s because my brain cannot distinguish between what really happened, what I felt that happened and what my nervous system kept inside its cells as … Continue reading THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 17: BEFORE THE CHAOS

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 16: I WANT TO RUN AND HIDE

I’m not sure from who or where to run. I’m not sure where to hide. But that’s what I feel, and intense feeling of inadequacy. It is not worthlessness or lack of self-value. It’s unsuitability for the purpose of coexisting in this world. Or maybe for the “simple” fact of existing. I’m not sure. But … Continue reading THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 16: I WANT TO RUN AND HIDE

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 15: I’M AFRAID I WON’T SLEEP TONIGHT

That’s nothing new. Sleep has become just a yearning for me for the past ten years. It may actually be even longer than that, I lost count of the so many sleepless nights. My problem is that the World is designed in opposition to how my brain works. I just don’t fit in. My brain … Continue reading THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 15: I’M AFRAID I WON’T SLEEP TONIGHT