THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. PART II. DAY 8: THE UNHEALED HEART OF A MONSTER.

Hearts are a complicated matter. Physiologically speaking, of course. But I'm talking about the non-tangible aspect of it. As it is said, the heart is the place where feelings reside. Or should reside. Or better said, should awake. Feelings are learnt behaviours, they stay in the mind until they are triggered by an external event. [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. PART II. DAY 6: A LOVE BETWEEN A SOLID AND A LIQUID WILL NEVER HAPPEN.

It's like trying to mix water and oil. You can put them together in a bowl or a glass; they can both stay floating but they will never become one. A solid and a liquid will not fuse; except under modified external circumstances: by force, extreme heat, extreme cold... To make myself clear, the only [...]

TONIGHT

Be quiet It's ok Embrace yourself tight Allow your tears flow And your fears come Allow to feel nothing And to break, To lose control Don't be scared to be fragile, my love You are one with your sorrow, yea that's right Stay quiet It's ok Silence brings healing Stay and wait, Stop and breathe [...]

TWIN SOULS

If it hurts deep inside, It doesn't mean it's wrong If it hurts you and you don't understand, If it brings up all your pain, Your fears, your wounds That's not wrong, That's not bad It's a gift It's the moment when you meet again When you remember your soul in another When you can [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN PART II. DAY 2: BEFORE THE CHAOS

I can’t really remember much. What was of me before the chaos? When exactly did the chaos start? I can’t remember. Maybe it’s because I don’t want to remember. Maybe it’s because my brain cannot distinguish between what really happened, what I felt that happened and what my nervous system kept inside its cells as [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN PART II. DAY 1: I WANT TO RUN AND HIDE

I’m not sure from who or where to run. I’m not sure where to hide. But that’s what I feel, and intense feeling of inadequacy. It is not worthlessness or lack of self-value. It’s unsuitability for the purpose of coexisting in this world. Or maybe for the “simple” fact of existing. I’m not sure. But [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 15: I’M AFRAID I WON’T SLEEP TONIGHT

That’s nothing new. Sleep has become just a yearning for me for the past ten years. It may actually be even longer than that, I lost count of the so many sleepless nights. My problem is that the World is designed in opposition to how my brain works. I just don’t fit in. My brain [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 14: CREPEHANGER

No, I’m not talking about anything related to pancakes. I’m also not talking about the actions of demons or specters. I’m talking about this tendency to mostly feel unlit events in relation to people around me, including myself. What I’m trying to say is that this “Beautiful World” is, to my eyes, a different kind [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 13: A QUICK RECIPE TO BREAK YOUR OWN HEART

It’s simple, just go after the cliché advise of following it. That’s it. You follow your heart, you’ll get a 90% chance of having it broken. The truth is, you never know. Honestly. You never know anything in advance, therefore the outcome of having your heart trashed into millions of pieces is not fully predictable. [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. DAY 12: THERE MAY BE SOME LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL

It could be the case that some light along this tunnel actually may exist. I want to highlight the “may” part, which I honestly think is more a “might” than a “may”; but you get my point. There is darkness all around. All over. The streets, the cafés, the restaurants, the offices; every single place [...]