I have a distorted, romantic vision of all the “could have been”s

Yep. As simple as that. I look into past events which may not have been the most pleasant ones I have gone through; grab a gigantic tin of pink paint and throw it all over my memories - butterflies and glitter included. What an idiot. But I guess I am not the only one. Yes, [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. PART II. DAY 8: THE UNHEALED HEART OF A MONSTER.

Hearts are a complicated matter. Physiologically speaking, of course. But I'm talking about the non-tangible aspect of it. As it is said, the heart is the place where feelings reside. Or should reside. Or better said, should awake. Feelings are learnt behaviours, they stay in the mind until they are triggered by an external event. [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. PART II. DAY 6: A LOVE BETWEEN A SOLID AND A LIQUID WILL NEVER HAPPEN.

It's like trying to mix water and oil. You can put them together in a bowl or a glass; they can both stay floating but they will never become one. A solid and a liquid will not fuse; except under modified external circumstances: by force, extreme heat, extreme cold... To make myself clear, the only [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN PART II. DAY 5: THE THINGS I COULDN’T DO FOR YOU

I may have dreamt it. I read somewhere that the brain cannot actually distinguish between real and fake memories, that in fact it treats them all as it is commanded to respond. So, if you really believe something happened when in reality it didn't, the brain will fully convince all of your consciousness that it [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN PART II. DAY 3: THE ONLY WAY OUT OF PAIN IS THROUGH IT

At least that's the only way I have ever known.There is no magical spell or prayer strong enough; or miracle or surprise.When it hurts, it hurts.And no matter how hard you try not to feel the pain; no matter how much you knock yourself down with over-sleeping, over-eating, over-thinking... the torment won't let you breathe.Each [...]

TONIGHT

Be quiet It's ok Embrace yourself tight Allow your tears flow And your fears come Allow to feel nothing And to break, To lose control Don't be scared to be fragile, my love You are one with your sorrow, yea that's right Stay quiet It's ok Silence brings healing Stay and wait, Stop and breathe [...]

TWIN SOULS

If it hurts deep inside, It doesn't mean it's wrong If it hurts you and you don't understand, If it brings up all your pain, Your fears, your wounds That's not wrong, That's not bad It's a gift It's the moment when you meet again When you remember your soul in another When you can [...]

THE WORLD BEYOND THE BLUE TREES. CHAPTER 7: THE NEW SYSTEM

2000 years ago the first regulations on the preservation of the Blue were written in the Ordinem Internum Codex. The codex described the doctrine of The New System. -Excuse me Magister Asmund, may I ask you a question? – Nanna raised her hand, shaking it quickly to get the instructor’s attention. – Yes, Nanna – [...]