I have a distorted, romantic vision of all the “could have been”s

Yep. As simple as that. I look into past events which may not have been the most pleasant ones I have gone through; grab a gigantic tin of pink paint and throw it all over my memories - butterflies and glitter included. What an idiot. But I guess I am not the only one. Yes, [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN. PART II. DAY 8: THE UNHEALED HEART OF A MONSTER.

Hearts are a complicated matter. Physiologically speaking, of course. But I'm talking about the non-tangible aspect of it. As it is said, the heart is the place where feelings reside. Or should reside. Or better said, should awake. Feelings are learnt behaviours, they stay in the mind until they are triggered by an external event. [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN PART II. DAY 5: THE THINGS I COULDN’T DO FOR YOU

I may have dreamt it. I read somewhere that the brain cannot actually distinguish between real and fake memories, that in fact it treats them all as it is commanded to respond. So, if you really believe something happened when in reality it didn't, the brain will fully convince all of your consciousness that it [...]

THE UNSPOKEN WITHIN PART II. DAY 3: THE ONLY WAY OUT OF PAIN IS THROUGH IT

At least that's the only way I have ever known.There is no magical spell or prayer strong enough; or miracle or surprise.When it hurts, it hurts.And no matter how hard you try not to feel the pain; no matter how much you knock yourself down with over-sleeping, over-eating, over-thinking... the torment won't let you breathe.Each [...]

TONIGHT

Be quiet It's ok Embrace yourself tight Allow your tears flow And your fears come Allow to feel nothing And to break, To lose control Don't be scared to be fragile, my love You are one with your sorrow, yea that's right Stay quiet It's ok Silence brings healing Stay and wait, Stop and breathe [...]

THE WORLD BEYOND THE BLUE TREES. CHAPTER 7: THE NEW SYSTEM

2000 years ago the first regulations on the preservation of the Blue were written in the Ordinem Internum Codex. The codex described the doctrine of The New System. -Excuse me Magister Asmund, may I ask you a question? – Nanna raised her hand, shaking it quickly to get the instructor’s attention. – Yes, Nanna – [...]

I DONT WANNA HEAR YOUR FADING VOICE

Can’t you see I’m empty again? 내가 또 비었다는 걸 모르겠니? This cannibal void strikes my soul 이 식인의 공허함은 내 영혼을 때린다. It’s a nocturnal poison, a hungry ghoul 이것은 야행성 독약이며, 배 고픈 괴물이다. No, don’t tell me that you know 너가 알았다고 말하지 마라 Don’t tell me that you get it 네가 [...]